change.who.with.you.

when i see it.it.everybody use it.get use to.it.i see just him?.where am i?.where?.its not a big deal.its not.no.it wasnt.but.its fell.OUCHES.i miss you.but.do you miss me too?.no.yes.dont know.you.not in it.in hearth.different?.just the same?.still him?.changing.me?.i.just love you.but.still.i.confused.not understand.i.love you.just.want.to.when.you.alone.then.then.story.you.tell.somethin.on saturday.or.sunday.you.LOST.then.where is me.in your hearth?
.me?
him?
.not both?
.but.something.you give.
can.i.change.who with you?.someday?.


i can take it.love.but.can you?all.your STORY.but mine?,will you hear it?

you are beautiful each day.not only this day.

she's come back from no where.and then i call her.we havent see each other since that day.but every time i meet her.there's something wrong with me.pump.parampump.pump.im lovin it!.you know the song!.i love her like McD.if i promise to myself not to eat it again then i cant take it.if i promise my self not to love her anymore.i cant take it.then this day has come i meet her again.then suddenly THE STRANGE felling.my toes are cold.i cant say a thing.stuck in this frozzen time.god!this is cold.pump.my hearth is pumping up.my hand is cold.god.this felling is very2 weird.i drive my car with a cold foot.i wearing my Socks!.still cold.my voice is heavy.haha..weird huh?

cold cold cold cold.cold cold.do you know something.you amazed me everytime i see your eyes.
cold cold cold cold.cold cold.do you know something.you are beautiful each day.not only this day.

then i realize.maybe you are the one.
then i realize i still love you.and i cant show you.that i love you.i just keep my felling.maybe you know?but.some people say.UNPREDICTABLE.you are.
one thing for sure.you are beautiful each day.not only this day.

somewhere in the center of jakarta.

saturday,12 july.actually im not in the mood to go somewhere.actually.actually.but when i called her.the mood was coming.then i asked her to go.actually she had the same mood.she want to go.then i asked my best to go too.and she wanted to go.so there was 3 of us.title:new wave.

we are confused.where we had to go.then we eat some fried rice in a blok.superman blok.
actually again.actually again.i wanted to go to loca.but.we all had been there.so we tried to moved our car to north of jakarta.my best said there was a very nice place in somewhere in north of jakarta.

after scared.long.fun.way,we finally arrived.then.we park our car. the place was awesome.its jakarta in batavia age.and old building.with live music with the singer.with the pianist.can you imagine it?can you.can you.
then we amazed.the building the singer.the song.the waitress.the place.all the picture in the wall.the toilet.amazed her.but only me.

than we ordered the drink.her.hot chocolate.my best.ice chocolate.me.hot latte.
with ciggar and all this drink.the place more become amazing.amazed her.only me.we chat in the "remang2".what?.not too dark not too bright.condition.it make the place more perfect.the wi fi made us can surfed fastly.then let me pictures again the place.we sit near the stage.in sofa.remang2 area.many foreign people.slow song only the pianist and the singer.the old fashioned building.the old fan in the ceiling.the old picture.the old toilet with a modern design.the atmosfir.not too cold not too hot.awesome.then we take our time.great.her.my best.my hearth pumping up!.pump.pump.pump.

after we fell satisfied.then the song changing become a band song.we end our time there.we end it with satisfying feelling.awsome.amazed.amazed her.only me.then we go out. we enjoyed our side seeing near the bulding.only three words.wow.jakarta in batavia age.fell the pain from the past.holland the enemy of our nation back then.again and again.her.my best.

then we go home.then there was a story in the way home.but.i should'nt tell you just keeping for myself.thanks her.and my best.you are two.the greatest.thanks.lets do it again sometime.

1.52am.sun.13 july.

i love you anyway.

i miss you but the most is when you meet your pillow and bed.you start to act like a child.i start to telling you about your bed time story.its not about romantic stuff its not about us.we talked about it but not for long.but its always about any kind of movies that we have watched or a song that we have heard or a qoute that we have read.then somehow the time move very fastly.if only i could stopped the time.2 hours passed.whoaaamm..i very sleepy.are you sleepy?yes.then we end our conversation.but i still miss you.hey R2 lover i love you anyway.

crazy.

i meet this girl.and she was so cool.she wear that star wars t-shirt.the blue one.the darth vader one.he loves R2.whoaa!we watched that panda.the panda was a noodle chef.the panda try to learn kungfu its so funny.its friday.(friday im in love-the cure)

again again again again.

then there is the green big guy.playing this movie.he is so bigg.damn.but this one is a great movie.i watched it with her.she lay her head to my shoulder.my hearth pump the blood fastly.my veins vasoconstrictly.uh.you know what i feel.(dont fall in love with me-the girl with a pink shirt).then i already fell.i cant.i cant.i cant.i grab her hand.(i wanna hold your hand-the beatles).

then there was a movie about the pyscho girl.she killed everybody to make happy this boy.he was a writer.every story has it ends.she try to finished the boy story.by killed all the people who live in that apartment.she feel cold.cause we are in the cinema.then i lend my brown hoody.she wear it.jifest crew eh?then.i start to look in to her eyes(this is not ghost rider story.).it feel just the same as i look her above.then kiss.first kiss was not good.she kinda mad.then i kiss again and this is for real.my hearth exploded.

she asked why did you kiss me?because i have falling.you.dont fall.i cant.dont fall.i cant.dont fall.i will hurt you.im happy when you are happy.my kissed are to heavy and hard.you have to learn kiss softly and smoothwithout losing the intensity.

you start act strangely differently.you think it will be comfortableif i dont treat you as your girlfriend yet.this including holding hand.strange.strange.i miss your hug.hug.hug.

then then then again.again again.again.this is crazy.this is madness.really.pass about a month.
i look into her eyes.i start to feel.i start falling.but.i know that shes feel the same way too.but have she ever considered my feeling.when she talked about another man.im human too.ican take it.but.again again again.now she's away.in bali.i miss her.but.but.but.it kinda loss.(incubus-i miss you).if you love me then you wouldnt dare right?.our tongue is our destruction.our tongue can killed a man.our tongue is our greatest weapon.mo great than a tank even a transformer robot.or vader light saber.scary.

ask again.you love me.or not.but question tag.that i cant answer.all this i've been through.whats the answer.just think.my feeling when you ask this question.loss.loss.loss.loss.loss.dont mellow!.you made me.you made me.you made me.

she said we have no duty about this relationship.never ask again.miss.love.or anything like that.
cause we are not what we are.sad huh?.the i try to cheer my self.because i just want to see her smiling.smile under the sad.not fight under the shade(300 movie).you cry.what should i do?.idont know.(if i feel-across the universe).this is madness.

this is crazy.
remember "the more people gonna love you the more people gonna hate you".WRONG.so wrong."the more people love you.then you can see which love that forever.forget the hate.then love them differently."
this is crazy.i try to prove some thing but its not working.

jakarta.12.july.2008.iki.